MANIFESTING A NEW LIFE
You know that feeling you get when you are about to travel to somewhere completely new? That feeling of excitement, nervousness and endless possibility?
Well I’ve got that now, and I think I might be hooked on the feeling! Which is partly why I’ve decided to minimise my life into the size of a 70L backpack for an indefinite amount of time. Not an entirely easy feat I might add, but more on packing and minimalism in my next post.
Yep, I’m going to freelance myself around South-east Asia with just my backpack and my laptop and frankly why the hell not? Unfortunately sometimes in the the west its quite hard to get yourself off the ground when you’re setting yourself up. You really need to work your toosh off just to pay the rent, which doesn’t always leave time for working on your own projects, let alone looking after yourself. Needless to say, it can be difficult to find your balance. Even more so in the big cities… The chances of buying a property go from zero to absolute crap. I’m just not interested in WORK WORK WORK WORK, so I can BUY BUY BUY BUY whilst constantly managing my stress levels and looking forward to my two holidays a year. NO, I want to meet interesting people, travel to new places and live a healthy, happy balanced life where I’m constantly learning. Travel isn’t for everyone but for right now, it’s ALL I want!
As I manifest this new life I can’t help but reflect on just how very long I have wanted this and all the obstacles and fears that held me back from my path. Most of them put into place but yours truly. It’s amazing what you can achieve when you stop listening to the voice in your head telling you, that you’re not good enough/smart enough/pretty enough/rich enough whatever your fears may be, stop listening to that bullshit! And see what happens.
Aside from setting myself up as a freelance graphic designer and becoming a certified yoga teacher, I’ve really learnt a lot about myself over these past couple of years since coming back to Australia. About who I am, what I want and how important it is to let go of that shit that doesn’t serve you. Break those bad habits and those vicious cycles/patterns that are causing you harm. Which is very hard to do when you are so blissfully unaware. You’ve got to face things head on. Which isn’t fun or pretty, but sometimes you have to go through hell to get to heaven! Believe me, there have been sleepless nights where I’ve been overcome by fear and uncertainty about my future and have felt completely lost and alone. Not a fun time, but I got through it and I am a truly lucky soul to have a supportive family who have been there for me as I dived deep into my fears only to come back up the other side stronger, happier and healthier.
Don’t get me wrong, I have by no means ‘made it’ and I’m certainly no trustafarian! This is precisely why I’m heading to Chiang Mai in Northern Thailand on Monday for the next three months! To ultimately ‘work my arse off’ whilst still being able to afford living in an apartment on my own, practicing/potentially teaching yoga when I want, meeting interesting new folk and getting weekly massages! I mean, it makes sense, right?
I could be unpleasantly surprised and it could be none of these things I imagine it to be, I could completely run out of money and end up living under a piece of plastic under a banyan tree but hey…. The main thing is that I give it a go.
Take the risk, say yes, book the flight, save the date, take the leap, make the jump, wear the dress, pack the backpack, do the dance, etc. It’s a much better alternative to waking up one day, looking in the mirror and seeing a wrinkled, grey-haired stranger looking back at you, filled with regret.
I’ll keep you posted.